For those of you who know me…

For those of you who know me, know I’m a bit nostalgic. I believe this appreciation for the past and joy from recollecting was instilled in me by my dad. I enjoy reminiscing about times that have gone by, sometimes to a fault, in that I miss the present or plan too much for the future. But, nevertheless, I cherish days like today- Memorial Day- for taking a time out to look back.

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One year ago today, I was lying in a hotel in Mesa, AZ. I had just been discharged from the local hospital after having a surgery that saved our pregnancy. I did not know what the days ahead would bring, but knew that in a few hours I would have to drop Frank off at the airport and spend the next days alone.

For those of you who know me, being away from home is not my specialty. I have always been a homebody. I am perfectly content hanging out at home. While I appreciate others’ love for travel, I generally have little interest. So, needless to say moving to Arizona was not something I would have chosen to do.

For those of you who know me, know that I strive to walk with God. It truly has been a bumpy road, of straying here and there. But, as I reflect on this Memorial Day, I see how God’s hand was guiding our footsteps during that treacherous time. We had found out on that Monday that we were going to lose our pregnancy and the medical team shared with us that there was nothing we could do about it. The parents of other quintuplets told me differently. When I learned of the surgery that had prolonged other high order multiple pregnancies the answer was easy; I needed that surgery. I recall wrestling with this decision in my mind. I saw two choices: Stay here in WI where I was comfortable and await the impending miscarriage, or hop on a plane to AZ to see the best maternal and fetal medicine specialist in the world. After we decided to choose life, God granted me peace. My fear had passed away, and this new sense of calm and strength arose. I take no credit for this change, but was merely witness to it. 28wk_diagram1

For those of you who know me, know that I have a rich inner life. I may be an ambivert on the Meyers Briggs, but I believe I’m a true introvert. I process life on the inside and share with those I trust. So, why would a true introvert write such a telling message? It is to brag, but not on myself. It is to testify to the guiding grace of God the Father, His humble Son and His Spirit.

I feel like I blinked and a year has flown by. Every day is an opportunity of worship. I look at my children and sometimes forget in the moment where they were 10 short months ago. I see them kicking and rolling and can recall them doing that when they were all crammed in my tummy. I stand in their nursery and just watch as all of their little heads pop up like little prairie dogs from their cribs in the morning. I dreamed of moments like that. Our children are a true joy and a challenge wrapped up into one little package

So, on this day when we are beckoned to remember, I encourage you to first and foremost thank those who have served our country. Remember those who have fallen for it. But, also take a moment to remember and recall the miracles in your life. For you are loved!

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4 thoughts on “For those of you who know me…

  1. Dear Cassie, What a beautiful message, another gift from you. I am always so moved by your thoughtfulness and immense understanding and gratitude for life around you. You give us something to think about, to pause and to take an account of that which truly matters. Jack and I exclaim to others when we tell your story how you and Frank have identified each little personality with the V5 and how you have managed to embrace the ups and the downs. Some people do not manage to see as clearly as you do in an entire lifetime! That mountain range in AZ brings me a sense of grandeur which reminds me there is something so much bigger than any of us and that it is up to all of us to try to make a difference in this world no matter how large or small. We are lucky to know you and you too are loved by many. Hugs, Sara & jack Date: Mon, 26 May 2014 13:05:20 +0000 To: sarcoaz@msn.com

  2. Having had twins (at 7 months – 35 years ago) I am so in tune with your experience. During my ride to the hospital I distinctly remember turning it over to God… the whole event went very well for us and I know He has a hand in every life. We are blessed by 5 kids too although ours came in two batches we are blessed to have great grown kids with kids of their own and each day with them is a learning experience.

  3. We can still remember the day you told life group the V5 were on the way! As you said, it’s so amazing how much happens in a year. We can’t wait to see you guys soon and we love reading about your journey as a family! God bless you guys!

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